poetry entry 26

wadup fureezy geezies. ’sbeen some time since i posted a pome on this the internet. i’ve been writing at a snails pace (maybe one evry couple weeks). haven’t really been in poetry mode, y’know? cuz being a poet is more about looking at the world a certain way than it is about writing poems, as we all know. the poems are just a byproduct of the living. so here’s one i just did wrote, tho:

CASSIDY: “See this? You’re at a disparate junction with reality.”
CASSIDY: “I know, I might climb off the tracks”

- excerpted from an interview with the poet, 1.17.08

let me try the christ grasp.
my penis is meaningless.
words are dead.
let me grasp at christ like a slaughterhouse kid in the birchlight of a cold morning.
or an empty morning.

death, i don’t care about death.
words are dead and i know we’re all nothing but words in the first place so
this must be Afterlife.
this must be fucking heaven.
heaven, i mean. right?

we’re born at dawn;
as the sun rises, we crumple in on ourselves,
we wither and hollows appear two at a time
and after the sun sets we deny death with a ferocity that only the dead can display,
we exude timeless dissonance, and speak as though saying it for the first time.
as though there’s anything unsaid.
as though nobody is born.

but i know all things
i know all these things
these things are simple, embedded in ancestral memory
remember?

i mean, if life forms came to us from the womb of space
from the folds of the universe
from the tea tables of the stars
what would their music sound like?
because, after all, Real Music isn’t aural
isn’t physical or spiritual
it doesn’t lie down to time like some withering bitch
and sure as shit it isn’t words. (because words are dead, remember?)

Published in: on January 17, 2008 at 3:54 pm Comments (1)

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poetry entry 024

ok here’s that pome i read the other day. the gae thing about wordpress is that they won’t let you indent to denote a continuous line, so when i post free-versey pomes like this one it’s kind’ve hard to tell where one line ends and the next begins. but whatever, it’s the words what matter, no?

the pliant easy sky’s bending yellowly in yielding delusion
the laughing demon sun lists names in aching coalescence
i concede his victory in a deathsail armada of twenty jets
who spit contrails spelling empty poems
decrying empty heads full of vacant sailboat comedreams
the train shudders and howls and conveys me faithfully through a solid night
home and hours to come mock me with bitter teeth
the spread of my hand is hollow assurance
the dry of my throat is an emblem of heads

the glistening haze of life shot through with greens
gives unending numerous hellful folds of
mind spurting sperm of life in words
in that sacred grasping at the sacred
never touching always trying
the engloriation of minutiae and mundane
the genius’ green dreams:
classic. delirious. intelligent.
sex. life. hapless point of woman’s chin.
helpless yearning boy’s espousals, screaming for joy of lungs, for joy of vocal pure and animal emotional bliss. shouting for having the spear, the sacred impaling sex pike.
the man fruit. the holy phallus of poseidon.
the love rivers.
the saints of all electric commingling.
the sacred electric yearning for all this commingling.
the comminglation of lovely saintly spanish human lovers.
the breeding laugh of men at night in sacrasanct streetlight drunken stumbles.
the grace and giving lilt of tennis shoes.
the softness of pavement.
the warmth of hand.
the cool aquiline shoulder curve.
the sacred snow of woman
how not to bend in worship

Published in: on October 2, 2007 at 5:17 pm Comments (1)

poetry entry 022

Hardwood floors seem claritous sparks of
dignity in this dense world.
a serious place to sit or sleep is
twice as important as Any Other Thing

We cut down armadas of trees
for various consolate posthumous arboratures.
this isn’t humanism it’s botany.
would you believe my if i said that poetry’s a legitimate branch of biology?
eggs hatch out droves of fiends who sword words in healthy desperation believe them please they’re the swaggering modern lovers modern saviors of all our souls and
all our hardwood floors

Published in: on August 30, 2007 at 3:03 pm Comments (2)

poetry entry 021

cars whisk my dumb breath inward
to impossible depths
where the divine, unspeaking idiot of life commingles
in gregorian inept grace
with my hopelessly sacred lovegut–
gut of a thousand sperm-dreams
gut of endless and noble loss
gut of valiant respite
gut of lonesome gallivants

and in all this my dumb skull in dumbness is blessed genius
(haven’t shed a thought all summer
and i never learned more all my life)

to think i ever deigned to wonder bout my constant twisted lip embarrassed silence

Published in: on August 26, 2007 at 3:02 am Leave a Comment

poetry entry 020

O stuttering lipless gasping face of grim unshod morn of shorn tressels of frames and ghosted enchantments and the hours of early nights the darkness the unseeness of true human insanity revealed in horrific beauteous totality and all these hopeless saint’s faces which stare in my chasm’s recesses in all their lovely roman antiquity.
listen! we’re all out of our fucking minds!
i’ve never seen a normal person as long as person i’ve ever seen and
i’ve seen washes of wreathing insanity in the line’s of Ever Mother’s countenance
really! countless sonic droves and waves of glaring absence!
i’ve looked in lost eyes, wondering where they are
it’s terror! it makes me have to hide in tight corners and sleep in closets or in backyards for fear of revelations of undistilled human truth.
there’s madness in your bootstraps! i saw secret manifestos scrawled in the scriptures of endless superstore lettuce bins!
your milk spoke to me last night. why are we doing this?
i could’ve sworn vehemently that every man i ever met was a secret prince.
the hidden elusive essences stare blankly out from your sacred fucking face when you order japanese food.
the perfect mathematical equation for sunlight is a pack of fingernails and twenty rattling cups and various discard retrieved from trashes.
you fucking madmen! i love you!
i really tried to keep from saying it.
you fucking madwomen! i love you!
and as such i endlessly count the trickles of streams.
i’ll say it out loud: lurid come-dreams saturate my thoughts!
tell me everything! i know you have them too!
respectable old women on buses see angry men and wonder things to make a sailor blush!
i saw it once! really!
i saw two doves on a barnroof tear eachother to pieces!
really! they’re just hidden pigeons!
give over your false ideallic lies, you’re hurting our world with your ill intent!
know that nothing is pure save the inherent impurity of humanity!
in imperfection we are perfect! really!
love your sleazy cousin as a saint!
revel in us all for we are pure!

Published in: on August 10, 2007 at 7:02 am Comments (1)

poetry 019

This slight bitch of a boy
[a “fist at rest”
a fucking poet,
man]
obscures the dawn. this is to say
i obscure the dawn with
suppressed magnanimous grace

i’m a thousand songs on the
epileptic decks of summer’s ships
on which trollop desultry steed lads
stomped scuffing hoofs slipping neighing giving love
to coarse young sailor boys
who spit from young fuzzed lips

and i sing and all those around me
refrain out of reverance.
I am Every Nation.

boughs snap under concrete weights
and laughingly i alight before dawn’s night shudders under a humble sun’s
furrows
and mend them with a titter
and scamper halfelvenly

i slay mundanity with a cold look
but sly and containing endlessly green seas
i shatter you chairs and tables
and sing alive anew
young forests
older orchards
i give you groves

and grave your cars
and grave your architecture
and grave your gardens
and grave your washingmachines
and grave your airplanes
and grave your petty passive angelsaints
and grave your magistrates
and grave your hallways and museums
and grave you television and your radio
and grave your astronomy

and buried to the chin in
softdarksupple earthen soil
i die eyes closed smiling

. . .

[on the recent two week work trip i wrote fifty two poems, most of which i'm proud of. it was an astonishing experience. i was utterly saturated in poetry, probably reflexively, to take my mind off how much being out there in hillsboro sucked. probably also cuz i was reading a lot of dylan thomas, ginsberg, gregory corso, william blake and kerouac, all of whom are embarrassingly great]

[if above note seems redundant in the face of the previous post, it's because i forgot that i wrote that other post. i thought i'd just thought about writing it. i obviously have very little capacity for organizing my thoughts]

Published in: on August 8, 2007 at 5:12 pm Comments (2)

poetry entry 018

you think i’m not singing about guns? watch:
coolant and saliatude, inepticity,
this britching birchtree fallen alien ailment, this illhood.
goe for the unto streams and the aching boghoods.
watch, just watch me,
you never seen a tree so immensely incredible.
awesome, xavier.
and where’d all this enmity unimmeterialize from?
hey? guys are dicklessly awful; unendowed unlike women.
[not fit to grasp your womanhand?
nor kneel at your altar?]
if i may be so coy:
artificiatude
vaingloriatingly
innuptuousness.
and now revert to “oh hell”s and “jesus shitbagging fucking apeshit”s
or as i should dare say evolutize
green green and green
see and you though i was apolitical!
(imaginary cheering ensues)

Published in: on July 22, 2007 at 8:15 pm Comments (3)

poetry entry 017

do the drift
helpsome appled enullment, arkily.
roland the awkward dwarf.
pleviatory levity.
escriptural idioms of scriptless genius
of
the loggeries and shacklike shapes
the casting of shackles
arteries, idioms . . .
illegal, egalite
awesome rainbows, sets of twenty
when numbers are words are they still numbers no.
is a still life still alive?
i’d hoped the heartsack wouldn’t leap
potatoes, beets, leeks, carrots—
please, john. you’re distracting me.
but honestly . . .
cardiff mockery, absolute shoredom
boringhood, glovery
domicilic, insectile innocence. noculate. innocturnal.
the things we do for a saturday night.
this IS religion
this IS astronomy
this IS cosmotology
this IS science
this IS the inflammated consummation of a bloated bout of humanity.
duh.

Published in: on July 14, 2007 at 4:47 am Leave a Comment

poetry entry 016

although i’m no alchemist
my endowments are effusals
i an enrupturement
and an ensnarement
and an encastment
a casting off, if you will
as it were
and if i may
and can the beguiling enshorement
end in something other than something else?
retrograde, deglove this loveless hellhood
and hellhoundingly we engoad and the escarpment was
less than empty of damnity and of inenmitude and
Grace would have known, i really think so
i think to engloriate would rupture the sounds
of time and of ragingly engagements and
back to the watertower, back to the reservoir
back to Saturn X

my god
is a hapless monger

Published in: on July 10, 2007 at 5:22 am Comments (2)